Click here to watch the TEDTalk that inspired this post.
I have been told that I “keep my cards close to my chest”, which I assume means that I don’t reveal a lot about myself – I withhold myself or parts of myself. Given this trait (that I don’t dispute), my somewhat introverted nature and, my interest in other people, what you get is a person who listens more than talks.
Ash Beckham’s TEDTalk “We’re All Hiding Something. Let’s Find The Courage To Open Up“. Made me think. What do I reveal and conceal about my true self? When and why do I do that?
Maybe it’s because I’m a “private person.” Maybe it’s because I prefer to think rather than to speak. Maybe it’s because I’m afraid that I’ll say the “wrong thing.”
Or, more likely, it’s my training and 30 years as a psychiatric mental health nurse.
Talking about myself was “taught out of me.”
In my professional circles of mental health nurses, therapists, counselors, and psychologists, there is a concept called “self-disclosure”. And self-disclosure is bad. This idea comes from training and tradition. I remember my professor in my undergraduate psychiatric mental health nursing class almost 30 years ago, emphasizing how important it was to know the difference between a “social relationship” and a “therapeutic relationship.” Relationships were either one or the other; they could not be both.
Fast-forward to the present and this is still in textbooks and is engrained in practitioners’ minds. Today, if you are a health care provider and a client’s friend, these so called “boundary” violations are called “dual relationships,” and are not tolerated at worse, and seriously frowned upon at best.
Persons who seek therapy want their therapists and nurses to understand them. I conducted a study a few years ago where I asked persons with mental illness what helped them to feel understood. What I found was exactly the opposite of what is done in practice – persons with mental illness wanted someone who shared with them their similar experiences. They felt more understood when their health care providers shared some “authentic” aspect of themselves.
I agree that as a therapist, there are good reasons for some separation. I agree that the focus of therapy sessions should remain with the person seeking help (the client) and that self-disclosure can create a big shift of attention – to where the client spends the whole time helping the therapist. This is not what I advocate.
However, do we need to take it as far as we have, and continue to? Can we be more authentic, as Ash Beckham encourages us to be? Can’t health care providers and therapists be more themselves?
It’s no surprise then, to know that persons with mental illness really like talking to individuals with lived experience of mental illness, persons who have personal experience with the mental health care system, and who are recovering from their illness or substance use issues. These health care workers that persons benefit from talking to are called peer support specialists or peer counselors. At least 36 states have peer specialist training and certification programs. In Illinois, the credential is “certified recovery support specialist” (CRSS). And research supports their work.
Perhaps mental health nurses, therapists, counselors, and psychologists can learn something here. To be sure, peer counselors are helpful because of their unique perspectives but they are also helpful because they, in my experience, are truly authentic. They “self-disclose.”
To take it back to a reference from Ash Beckham’s TEDTalk, I sometimes would like to toss a grenade into the professional self-disclosure closet. Let’s just be real. Let’s be ourselves.
This piece was originally posted on February 28, 2014 on Huffington Post.
Wow, thanks for sharing this Mona. As I thought about what I would share in my next post, I had decided to discuss doing research within one’s own community and my experiences with a project where my being very open about my identities and political philosophies was a key to success in recruiting. I have certainly blurred the lines between researcher and community member in this project and will share those thoughts next week. It’s quite a shift for someone from the stoic Midwest who learned to stifle emotions and “keep my cards close to my chest” as you noted.
another terrific resource along the line of doing research within one’s own community is the first chapter of the book “Boots of Leather, Slippers of Gold” by Liz Kennedy and Madeline Davis. This book is about their oral history of the lesbian community in Buffalo during the 30’s and 40’s. Liz was a professor of women’s studies at SUNY Buffalo and very out lesbian; Madeline was a librarian/archivist at the Buffalo public library, and not only out but outrageously out from her teen years in Buffalo, and had been “initiated” in the community as a teenager among the women they studied. I lived in Buffalo during the time they were conducting the study, and part of their commitment was to regularly give back to the community by presenting their work at various events .. I heard them speak several times over the years. Their study is a model – I have recommended this chapter for all of my doctoral students over the years because of the detailed and really excellent description of how they planned and conducted this study in their own community, preserving the integrity of the study, as well as their own relationships within the community.